A secret letter to God.............. my heartfelt gratitude to Him.

 

 Dear God,

With more than what

That makes one’s life happy

I thank thee, dear God

For generously blessing me.

 

With loving parents

And a superb bro

You nurtured me

Gushing my heart, with love, to flow.

You filled my life with dedicated teachers

You placed them as stars in the night sky

Yet within reach, which was frequent

You guided me, showed me the path to LOVE LIFE

 

Then you gave me the grace to hear your call

And with the greatest blessing of Our Wondrous Queen

Loving and firm; Mother and Warrior,

You both held my hand and made me a Man.

Interspersed with water vapor, as in a rainbow

Invisible, yet with the sole reason, for the magic of light

Just as the same for my meaningful life

Are the formators who gave me their precious effort and time.

An encouraging pat, a loving smile

A funny name that comes straight from the heart

Makes me feel so alive, and happy, and love lost

Grateful indeed for friends, whom I sincerely trust.

Silly things, that we might laugh on

Being there, especially in times of need

Like salt and spice that makes food tasty

Thanks God, for this fantabulous community

You gave me life on this special day

At the start of the novena for your coming

To prepare the Way for you dear Lord

May with many hearts, my mission be.

Thanks indeed for your many blessings,

Heart-touching encounters with people

with many soul-raising experiences

And especially for this wondrous life

Yes, life – L I F E

Love In Full-on Experience

Through Her Love to You, O Lord

Through Her Love, to You, O Lord.

I thank You, O Lord for giving me Your Mother.

Through Her Love, to You, O Lord.

For it is She who since my birth

Has preserved me, and has now presented me to You.

I lived my life carefree

As if I had no problems.

While internally it kept piling up

Under the blanket of a false self-image.

It is during the Intensive Journal

That I came to the realization of MY TRUE SELF,

Which the unconscious self had hidden

And prepared itself for an opportune time.

All the events, the many persons I met;

All have affected me in many ways

Which until this time

I could neither feel, experience nor see clearly.

It is when, that I began to dig my well

That I clearly understood how a caterpillar becomes a butterfly.

It is then, I started to face much of my problems

Which because of my ignorance and carelessness, were left unsolved.

It was the time, when I was engulfed in darkness,

When I was in the dirty muck of my well,

When I could find no one to help and support me,

That was the time then I had to face my        true self

He was dirty, ego-centric and wholly success-oriented.

He laughed at me and pointed me out

Saying, “WHO and WHAT you are is because of ME.

Come, come and make obeisance to me.”

What he said was truly right.

What I am is because of him.

Then from nowhere, a ray of light flickered

Maybe through him or from behind him.

I gathered strength and blurted out:

“It is because of you that fear entered me,

The fear of not to succeed.

Scared of relationships, you have made me a lone man,

And hid my talents just with the fear of failing.”

“I don’t like you.

I don’t want you.

I don’t need you.

I can stand on my own feet.”

Hearing all these that I said,

He felt a rage of resentment.

But what could he do,

He was not me and I was not him.

Knowing that nothing can be done,

In all his ego and narcisstic attitude,

He blew up, he exploded

And thus he destroyed himself.

Now I was hurt, I was left alone,

In a dazed mood, I looked around

And what I saw was to change my whole life;

It was the beginning of the never end.

I saw Jesus with open arms.

I cried out and ran to him.

I embraced him as a long-lost lover

And asked him, “Where were You, O Lord?”

He just looked at me,

He patted me on the back and

Said, “Well done, my faithful friend.

I wanted you to fight yourself and

Come out as a liberated man.”

“I know what you want to know.

I was with you all the time,

I waited for you to make an effort

And you played your part very well.”

I asked him about that ray of hope

Without which possibly I would have been stuck up with him.

“That ray of hope which you saw, my friend,” He said,

“Was my Mother, your Mother.”

 “How could you miss Her, Nelson?” He asked.

“She was the one who helped you play your crucial part.

Without Her, you wouldn’t have been able to come out.

Without Her, you wouldn’t be here.”

I looked at her, so magnificently dressed,

A smiling face, radiant with light.

“Thank you,” I said, “My dear Mother.

And lead me always to Your Son.”

And so in every moment, may my actions proclaim

“Through Her LOVE, to you, O’ Lord.”

ANGEL...............Waiting for one

                                                    Hiiiiiiiiiii !!!!!!! It’s nice to see YOU here….

I had written this poem when I was at a stage where I had to make a firm decision. I was a little bit confused. Writing your feelings do help, so I did the same. I am posting this poem, because it makes me look back on life and sets me thinking and thus renews my life. It can help someone………
Who knows how God works!!!!  So here is the poem for you………

    Angel....... waiting for one

To come into my life

And lighten it with all that she has

The Power, the Smile,

And most of all – Love

That only She can provide.

 Love and not lust, that I seek,

To express

And in this beautiful process

Bare out my heart, my feelings,

My whole self, all that I am.

I know, somehow I just know

That there is THE ONE waiting for me

Is it a game?

Do I have two lives?

Commitment !!! This word loaded with meanings

Haunts me, for I have already given

Myself to THE GREATEST ONE

Yet I believe that HE knows my heart

That I want to spread HIS love

To the whole world.

To see the radiating happiness in people’s faces

Is my wish. I hope that will be

My battery to continue HIS work.

But I long to experience love, first.

I know that THE GREATEST ONE  loves me

But I – a normal human being

Want to feel it in a tangible way.

Could it be possible that I am

Mixing up the two?

Immature though my wish be

I am happy that I could atleast bring it out.

Words!!! Can you do this for me?

To express what I really feel?

Religious Life, so holy, so family like

This was my previous presumption

I guess that no one can escape the jungle.

Man is an animal, the intelligent animal

But yet an animal after all

You fend for yourself,

Remember your stomach is yours,

Your life is yours,

Your heart is yours, not someone else’s.

Happiness, like a magnet, attracts many.

Am I a tissue paper? Use and Throw?

Where and how doesn’t matter.

You have value only when you are of use.

‘We don’t need a human being,’

That’s the feeling I receive.

 A human being who has feelings, emotions

Who can spread happiness by simply being.

But what People need

Is not a ‘Being’ but a ‘Doer.’

They seem to give worth or rather weigh

A person by the many things he can DO.

God, my Love, THE GREATEST ONE,

Send down your Angel

Or teach me to look into the Heart

And help many to do the same.

I’ll wait, till I die,

Atleast then will I be assured of meeting YOU,

My GF......

MY GREATEST FRIEND,

THE ONE,

THE GREATEST ONE.